My biggest transformation

CHAPTER 1: TRANSFORMATION

 Hello readers a very good morning to all :)my today's post is about the biggest transformation in my life I  have been my the best kid for my parents always securing superb marks always doing what my father wanted me to do but as I grew up I could not live up to their expectation for example mathematics my parents are very good in mathematics but me being the creative one loving all creative things I am not very good at it my parents got very disappointed by me even that I was not opting for maths in my 11th class specially my mother initially even I felt bad that I could not live up to their expectation for the first time but I  also knew if I opted maths I will never be able to secure the marks I wanted to and getting just passing numbers is the most depressing thing for me and thankfuly I did not opt for maths and   I explored my talents more like specially writing because it's the my most favorite gift from god to me my grandfather also used to write a lot and he was one of my favorite person and now I know why :) the moral of the story is not all changes are bad and I hope it may help anybody of you who wants to be according to someone just because you love them remember if they really love you they will love you as you are and what you are

CHAPTER 2 :My version without any aversion

Ups and down

some days   broom  some days crown

one day I have it all 

other I get nothing even after giving it all

my parents taught me to persist

but sometimes I fall  into stupid temptations and important things I resist

I am here to make  mistakes 

in life you have no retakes 

bless the soul filled with  perfection

I am a learner and I will always be without suspection

judge me when you know

 because many things I hide and I had rather not show 

CHAPTER 3 :Sanity

what when who why where do they really  deserve  to know

what went wrong is your concern they are no one to know

fake concern is all they show

curosity or backbiting  is their motivation

nobody really cares it's their sheer desperation

judging is all they know 

hatred filled heart with a mouth of crow

stay away from such people  and maintain your sanity

responding to them is like ruining your dignity

their unwanted insecurity they attach with your life

if you have any issues and you share  they will nullify your problem and say they saw you holding knife :P

 

CHAPTER 4 : REALITY HITS

Head and heart
are not each other's sweetheart
one says left other says right
this fact I constantly  experienced which made me  quite uptight
professionals are supposed to be practical head they are supposed to use more
but follower of my heart this fact initially  my basic nature did not adore
experiences of these years  and mum taught me using head is today's  need
institute is the stepping stone  indeed
although now practical but still I lack in practicality
as an emotional individual is my reality
initially just an obsession   now a  reality
indeed this whole experience has improved my vitality

CHAPTER 5 : Naive but brave

TOO TIRED
AS I AM WEIRDLY WIRED
WORLDLY TALKS  I DON'T UNDERSTAND
AND WORLD ALWAYS MISUNDERSTANDS
CONFUSION THEY CAUSE
IT'S THEIR LOSS
THEY SHOULD ASK NOT JUDGE AS I AM NOT AWARE OF THE WORLDLY RULES
NOT THAT I SAY THAT RULES ARE FOR FOOLS
IT'S JUST I DO  NOT KNOW THEM
SO JUDGING ME BASED ON THAT IS LIKE CREATING A MENTAL MAYHEM
NICE AT FIRST HEAD AND HEART FILLED WITH LUST
THINKS I DO NOT UNDERSTAND THEIR INTENTION WHICH ARE LIKE DUST
SUCH MENTALITY NEEDS TO  ROT LIKE IRON AFFECTED BY RUST
STAYING AWAY FROM EVERYONE IS A THING THEY MUST
JUST BECAUSE I AM NOT AWARE OF WORLDLY WAYS
I STILL UNDERSTAND WHERE YOUR CRUEL INTENTIONS STAYS
INTUTION  I POSSESS
ON THE BASIS OF WHICH I ASSESS